I should be doing my paper but it can wait, so hi.
Hi. It's been awhile. I have loads to tell but I don't know where to start. 2018 has successfully changed me to be somebody I am aiming to be this year. Doesn't mean that I'm completely whole better but I could quite feel the positive progressive I made late these months. I am completely more aware of what I'm taking, which path I'm walking, who I am now, baby steps are okay and I'm happy with my baby steps.
Exaggerating things, that's what I usually do. But this time, I really am not. I literally don't. For my fellow readers, (as if people read my blog constantly) I am now working part-time as an English tutor in a course in Malang. Truth be told, it was totally unplanned. Before the 5th semester started, I questioned my own ability on making money, or at least, making money out of things that I am capable of. I'm no English crackerjack, I'm a total mediocre. See, your clueless 20 year old lady is still there, going nowhere.
Okay, how did I end up becoming an English tutor wasn't easy. What I had was total miracle, I can say. I saved this Whatsapp number of my current office and they uploaded a Whatsapp story. Practically, a job vacancy. They were looking for part-time English tutor. I was veraciously impeaching my own ability of what I should write down on my CV. What in the universe am I capable of? What is my strength? What software I am familiar with? What kind of achievements have I reached? It was a hella long rollercoaster ride. Way more spine-chilling.
But I managed to calm my insecurities. I got no Photoshop so does with the skill. But hey, shoutout to Photoscape developer for developing Photoscape to how it is today, I am beyond pleased. I made my CV on my own, with the help of Photoscape and oh, thank you Dafont for providing free fonts. I keep coming to your web for my visually-pleasing needs.
Hire me as your ambassador, won't you? My CV is done, my cover letter is there, I sent my application. Based on my previous experience about opening up to people of what you're currently doing or what you're going to do was never a good idea. You better not. Unless you got someone on your back to hold you when you feel things are collapsing, go with that option.
After waiting for prolly around 2 weeks, I got a call. I was invited to an interview. Hella. Friggin. Interview. From the day I got the call, I assured myself not to ruin things up and to do my best, at least once. The day came. I went for the interview. It was like normal interview like you did when you apply for a position in your campus organization. The difference was only about earnings, things that won't be asked when you work for campus organization. You have to work with your heart, eh?
The announcement day came. It was only a day after my interview. I GOT THE POSITION. Guess what, your fat-lazy-ass lady will work, she got to sacrifice herself to work things out. Long story short, I signed the contract and I started working as an English tutor.
2018 is coming to an end and so does my work. I will work for the company until mid February and I will leave the trace there. Oh, okay, stop being dramatically extra. If you wonder how does it feels like to work as a tutor, it's actually sweet yet eerie. Responsibility is responsibility. Money comes afterwards. Working your students' expectations is hard-won feeling. When you work, you gotta work. When you got salary, it's just an extra bonus.
On the other side, I'm also working on something yet I manage to keep it first before it starts. Well, let's hope for better things ahead. My campus life is also fine. I find it all manageable and no problemo. What's getting worse is my electronic devices. My camera lens is error, my phone is shattered. Thank God my heart is still dead. I'm out of blinding love story.
The thing is, I am grateful, very much grateful for what God has brought me to, for the opportunities I was given, for the path I am taking, basically for everything. No space for being a crybaby, it's time to grow, to develop, to serve and of course...to be rich. No joke.